Happy Friday!!

I have lost another 400gr. Woohoo!! I want to lose another kilo tby end of next week or as close to it as I can. I am happy as usually when a holiday approaches I give up on my healthy eating. But this time round it is different and it feels good. I have lost 7kg sofar in 4 months. I am quite happy with that results. So that is about 2kg per month. It is not as much as I would like but that I will get there. WLR tells me I will reach my target by march next year. So that is not too bad.

I am so very excited about my holiday. 7 days to go :) My friend who is living in France and who am going on holiday with is arriving on Tuesday. So the holiday kind of starts now. Canada here we come ...

After my holiday I will start training for a triathlon and so hopefully that will keep me on the right path while away. It feels good to have something to look forward to when I am back from holiday.

A friend asked to me a 13mile walk in Windsor but it is the day I come back from holiday so that is not gonna happen. And then she told me the start was at 5.30am!!! I was like "WHAT!?" .. It is still dark at that time. But would like to do something like that one day. Maybe not at that time of the day!!!

Breakfast: Porridge oats, sunflower seeds. skimmed milk and choc whey protein
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Peaches and tuna. Dessert: Melon and red currants
Pre-Workout: Shake + Banana and cashew nut butter
Post Workout: Shake
Dinner: Egg Omelette made with 2 eggs and 3 egg whites + Smoked trout. Dessert: Pineapple
Snack: TBC
Drinks: 1 Cafe Latte, 3L water, Energy drink

Exercise: PT gym session

Happy again...

Last night spoke to Natasja, best friend, about my shyness in the pub and the guy on this dating site who didn't reply. And it was good to talk to her as she knows me better than anyone else and realise that my shyness is not always a bad thing. After that conversation I realised I am way to harsh on myself and I should take one step at the time and that everything will be fine.

Welcome to my drama world... :)

This morning the guy from the dating site replied and said that he was very sorry but his mum had to go to hospital and he still really wanted to meet up with me. So that was good news. It has really cheered me up again. So we'll see what the next thing will be.

I played tennis with another friend this afternoon. And now my knees are in agony. Every time we played I burn about 500 calories. So now I always tell him that we have to play till I burn that. And it is probably because I am getting fitter but it took me longer to get to these 500 calories. At about 350 I was getting really tired but he felt like carry on and he forced me to play till we got to the 500. Glad we did now... This HRM thing is such a great thing for me to push me otherwise I would have stopped much earlier.

Breakfast: Porridge oats, skimmed milk, sunflower seeds and choc whey protein
Lunch: Omelette made with 2 eggs and 3 egg whites and a gluten free roll and 3 oat cakes. Dessert: pineapple
Snack: Trek flapjack (God I love these!!Much nicer than the nakd bar...)
Dinner: Chicken breast and lentils. Dessert: Grapes
Snack: Not sure yet
Drinks: 3L water

Exercise: 1.5Hr Tennis singles

Online dating

I have been on an online dating for some time now and right now I think I will stop this for a while or maybe forever. I don't know yet. Reason being is that some men I have been chatting online with often said that they really enjoy chatting to me and that we should meet upp. And when it came down to have something organised they didn't bother replying to emails or messages. And right now I have more than enough of men with no balls. Why on earth would you tell someone that it is great chatting to just to be nice. I don't get it!! So right now I am just gonna stop it for the time being and see what happens. Anyway I am going on holiday in 2 weeks time and then after that will start my triathlon training and will meet people there too. So that is why I want to take a break of it. I know a lot of people that have met their partner onlin but it obviously is not something for me ... or maybe now is not the right moment!! Time will tell... The reason why I was so down for the last few days is probably because of that. I was suppose to go on a date tomorrow and the guy in question hasn't confirmed it yet!!! So am not happy at all about it as I was really looking forward to it... I have enough of crying about it and decided enough is enough. Time to enjoy life and not to be miserable. I feel like I have been moaning and complaining a lot and that is so not like me. This holiday couldn't come at a bette time!!! I cannot wait ... the next 2 weeks are going to be the longest of my life :)

Today went running with my PT and it was great. After the run we went for a coffee and he had a sandwich. It was nice to do that. He keeps paying for this which is nice. It is nice to have a PT that takes care about the social side too!! So in the end it was a total of 2.5hr that I was away with him. 1.15hr running + walking back to the club and I have burned over 700 calories. I was very happy about that... And then in the evening I met with some friends which was very nice too and so my spirits are on the up again....

I realise too that I am emotionally drained right now and cannot cope with too many emotional stuff right now. So that is why this holiday couldn't come at a better time. So after my holiday my posts should be more positive and cheerful and full of zest :)

Thanks for reading!!

Not fun being shy.....

Today was my first night out with the people of my runninclub. I started this runningclub 4-5 weeks ago....
I went out because I knew it was something I had to do. If I didn't go then I probably would regret it. I arrived there and I recognised someone from the running club, Simon and he was there with his wife. I chatted to them the whole time I was there. I am quite shy and never feel confortable to go and chat to people I don't know. I didn't recognise anybody especially as they were all dressed up. I hate it to be so shy and feel so not confident to go and just talk to peopleI don't know. I wish it didn't scare me off like that. My PT was there too and he checked on me at times to see if I was OK - which was nice!
I got home after 2 hours or so of being there and felt so down and started crying. Not too sure why - probably because I was hoping to have a good time. I probably just wanted to be like I am with my friends, bubbly, funny, talkative. They all say that I am good fun to have around. So why can I not be like that with people I don't know!!! GRRRRRR!!

I knew I had to go as otherwise I would probably feel guilty of not going. And I want to meet new people... but how am I gonna meet new people if I am so shy. Right now it doesn't make sense. Maybe I have to go more often to these gathering ... but right now I don't really want to go again.

Oh well at least I went. Thank God I meeting up with some friends tomorrow and Sunday. So that should cheer me up again.

Sorry not a positive post .... but had to get it of my chest!! Tomorrow is another day ...

Pub night + good weight loss this week!!

I have lost 700gr this week. I am very happy about it. So that means I’ve lost the 400gr that I put on last week + an additional 300gr. So it is all going into the right direction. My target is now to lose another 1.5kg before my holiday. So fingers crossed for that!!

Tonight I am going to the pub with the running club. Well I should say suppose to go. I am very nervous about it as I only know 2 people out of 30 or so. And as I am quite shy it feels a bit daunting right now. But if I want to meet people I have no choice than to go. Last night I was quite emotional about it and didn’t want to go at all. But that was also after a couple of bad night sleeps. So because I was very tired I didn’t see the things clearly. Today after a better night sleep I feel more positive but still very nervous. I don’t always understand why I am like that. I could go to the pub and feel totally comfortable and can’t stop talking and laughing but if someone makes me feel uncomfortable then that is over with and will want to hide then. So I hope everything will go well. Hopefully it is all gonna go much better than how I imagine it right now.

Breakfast: Porridge oats, sunflower seeds, skimmed milk and choc whey protein
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Couscous, prawns, tomatoes and béarnaise sauce (I could have béarnaise with absolutely everything :)). Dessert: Melon
Snack: Trek Cherry Crunch flapjack (absolutely love these)
Pre-workout: Protein shake + banana and cashew nut butter
Post workout: Banana Protein shake
Dinner: Porridge (same as breakfast. I couldn't be bothered to cook and also didn't have much time as am going to the pub. Gosh I am so very nervous ... GRRRRRR!!!
Drinks: 3L water, 1 coffee latte and energy drink. Drinks at the pub – don’t know yet what these gonna be.

Exercise: Gym session with PT

Update on Runningclub

Yesterday was runningclub day again. After talking to my PT about how unhappy I was with it. I was a bit apprehensive on what action, if any, would have been taken! And if he took my complaining/moaning seriously. Well I can say that I could see a big change and I felt like part of the group and the leader made sure everyone was following. So I was very pleased with that!! A lot more people were there than previous time and I am happy to say that I was not the last one. Actually there were at least 4-5 people behind me! So it kind of made me go faster I think. So the last part of the run I went along with some other girls and they ran just a bit faster than me but I was able to keep up with them. Well just about! At the end I couldn't feel my legs anymore. And then I looked at my HRM and I was shocked. I burned about 834cal. I never burned that much in one session. So although I was totally exhausted I could not stop smiling. I was such a happy bunny yesterday!! Now I will probably look forward to the running club again as opposed to last few weeks where I didn't really want to go.

But then when I got home I was so shattered that I couldn't bother preparing something to eat so just had some oat cakes and Trek flapjack and some fruit. I really struggle to eat something or preparing something after the runningclub. Often once I am back and had a shower it is often after 9pm and then I don't want to eat to much as I won't have time to digest it before going to bed. So have to find something for that. Still getting used to my new routine especially with the runningclub.

And now I am going on holiday for 2 weeks. And obviously I very very excited. I am also nervous how I will cope foodwise. As so far I did found my routine that worked for me. And will be messed up while on holiday. But I can't have that ruin my holiday. Funny how before I wouldn't worry about these things and now this is the first thing I am thinking about. With my friend who is also a runner we have decided to book hotels with fitness or pool. And I will take my skipping rope with me too!!

Breakfast: Porridge oats, sunflower seeds, skimmed milk, choc whey protein
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Chilli no rice. Dessert: Melon
Snack: 100gr yoghurt, blueberries, strawberries,ed currant and vanilla whey protein
Dinner: Porridge (same as breakfast). Dessert: Peach and Nectarine
Snack: 4 Ricecakes
Drinks: 1 Cafe atte, 3L water

Exercise: None

17 days ...

17 days to my holiday ... when thinking about it I can't stop smiling! I haven't been on a holiday like that for such a long time. It is going to be a big adventure. And I so cannot wait!! So the countdown has officially begun now :)

I saw my PT today and it was a very good session. We went for a run and I burned over 600 calories in one hour. I was very happy about it because lately we only got to 500 so good improvement there. On Friday all those from the runningclub are going to the pub in Windsor. And my PT asked me if I was going to come too. At first I thought well I don't really know a lot of people there and as I am quite shy when I don't know people ... I wasn't too sure about it. But because he kind of insisted for me to go I might as well go. I am not gonna find my boyfriend by staying home either!!! So now have decided that I will go!! Wish me luck :)

Today decided to cut out my cafe latte that I so love. But want to find out whether I drink out of habit and can I miss it. Today I didn't have it and I am fine. I only have one coffee latte a day so not too sure whether it makes such a big difference to have it or not. But I know that coffee makes your retain water. So hopefully I can keep it up till my holiday.

Breakfast: Porridge oats, skimmed milk, sunflower seeds and choc whey protein
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Couscous with mixed pulses, cucumber, feta cheese. Dessert: Mango
Snack: 100gr yoghurt with blueberries, strawberries and red currant and vanilla whey protein
Pre Workout: Protein shake and Banana with cashew nut butter
Post Workout: Protein shake
Dinner: Omelette made with 2 eggs and 2 egg whites with smoked salmon. Dessert: Peach and Nectarine
Snack: 3 oat cakes
Drinks: 3L water & Energy drink

Exercise; Run with PT