PT

Just back from my session with my PT. And I wasn't looking forward to it at all. But it went quite well.

I told him that the sessions have to be tougher as otherwise it is a waste of money. And also told him that the exercises I do have to be right for me and not just picking some machine that is free. He was very surprised when I said that. As that was totally not how he felt. I also told him that the session last week was the thoughest I had. And he couldn't believe it. But he knows I wouldn't lie about it or not just say things for the sake of it!! I also mentioned that he has to be as motivated as I am about losing weight and toning up. And that he doesn't just do it for the money. Whether he agrees or not I leave that up to him. I just had to vent my frustrations and let him know. So now I've done my bit and that is the only thing I can expect from myself. It is out in the open so it is up to him now to do something about it. And after the session we had today ... Goodness me!! That was one big though session...

But I am happy with how he reacted to everything I threw at him. In the end he is very open for changes. It is just a shame that I had to confront him with it for him to realize I wasn't happy. It would have been nice if it would have come from him!!! And I think that is the problem I had with it. OK there are the emotions attached to it too. But hey I managed them very well today. So very happy indeed...

There are still a few things that I have to tell him. But he told me that Saturday we will go for a run and then for a coffee. So that will be my moment to tell him the rest that I need to get of my chest. He knows I am someone that needs to say it when there is a problem. Otherwise I will get irritated with him for something totally unrelated with the issue... So yes right now all is good...

I have been worrying all day about this. I am someone who absolutely hates confrontation. I would avoid it any cost. But glad it is all out and that it didn't end up in a big discussion but just about talking about it. It didn't feel such a big issue anymore...

I still have to sort out my food. This is not going great right now! I am not eating naughty stuff but just don't make a lot of efforts and my veggies count is way down. Nowhere where it is supposed to be!! Have to do something about it. But have such a busy week this week... So it will be for next week.

xxx