After a break of blogging decided to start again. I can't realise it is almost a month ago since my last post. During the month of December I have done a lot of thinking ... as I always do! I have made a huge decision. For the past 6 years or so I have been seeing a counsellor who helped me to get through the darkest years of my life. And I don't think that without her I would be the person I am today. I will always be grateful for everything she thaught me and learned to accept myself the way I am. Now I have made the decision to go alone without her help as I think I am strong enough to cope. I feels quite scary as she was the one that has kept me sane all these years. But on the other hand I feel very proud of how far I've come. So this is the big decision. The thing is that I know I can always go back to see her if I ever need to. But right now I want to deal with it on my own. So my blog entries will be a lot about how I feel too and not always fitness or diet related. And I believe that writing it down helps already a huge lot...

Exercise:
PT: The exercise part is still the same. I will still see my PT as I still want to do this duathlon this year and he will help to achieve this. And I still want this fabulous beach body by the summer :) I am also looking into having some kettlebell training too. Unfortunately my PT doesn't do that. But I have found 2 around where I live. So would love to do different things. And so many people are raving about it. I want to give it a go...
Runningclub: I now want to go there every week. I have enjoyed the last few weeks in December.
I would like to exercise 5 times a week again, preferable 6. But I will start with 6.

Food:
I will log all my food again with WLR. It has helped me quite a bit the few weeks before I went away for Christmas. I stopped counting for most part of the summer. But now I want to control more what I eat and make sure I don't eat too much and have enough protein. As that is still on the low side!

Happy New Year to you all!!

Caroline xxxx

Back to the runningclub ...

And I loved it! I was very nervous as I haven't been since September. I went back to the beginners and I really enjoyed it! It was a good pace for me and I still earned another 600 calories for one hour. So I was very pleased with myself. So I have decided to carry on going now and stay with the beginners till my fitness picks up again. As after 2 weeks of no activity whatsover due to a nasty bug i could see that I've lost my fitness quite a bit! Amasing how in 2 weeks you can lose so much of your fitness. But hey now I am more motivated again to keep going. I think sometimes a break can help to refocus and put more effort into things. The only thing that I am not gonna do this week is to push it.

A while back I wanted to exercise 6 times a week and never managed to do so. So now I have decided to stick with the 5x a week and not get stressed about the 6x. For me 5x is pretty good going and if I can keep that up then I will be very happy when the Bikini season is there :) I can't even remember last I had a bikini!!

Good day to you all!

xxx

Woohoo!! Very happy today as I have lost the 1kg I put on while my friends were here. I didn't think I was that focussed but something happened and am very happy about it...

Now I have to concentrate to up my protein level. As that is still on the low side. I have changed my nutrition profile to Carb 45%, Protein 30% and Fat 25%. I never realised how many carbs I was eating during the day. So now want to make sure my protein level are good too! That is probably why I never kept the weight off as I was often hungry.

Tonight I will see my PT and am a bit nervous as last time I almost fainted. And somehow it has stuck in my brain. Although now I feel much better. But I felt OK last time I saw him so we'll see! And he didn't even push me hard... I am probably worrying for nothing. But I definitely won't overdo it on the exercise front this week.

Food for today:
Breakfast: Oatso simple sweet cinnamon + 180ml skimmed milk
Snack: Orange
Lunch: Brown bap with egg mayo. Dessert: strawberries and blueberries and a bit of agave nectar (Yummy!!)
Snack: Provamel banana flavour
Post workout: Protein shake
Dinner: Wholemeal pitta with sweet chilli chicken, tomatoes, cucumber and mayo. Dessert: TBC
Drinks: 1 Caffe latte, 3L water, 1 Energy drink

Exercise: PT session in the gym probably

I’m quite pleased with myself. I haven’t exercises for the last 2 weeks or so and on Saturday night I went to a big party where there was lots of eating and drinking. This morning I got on the scales (one day earlier than my weigh in day) and I was still the same as on Friday (a day before the party). Well I have to admit I didn’t drink a lot of alcohol as I wasn’t feeling great. I am still suffering from a bug or something nasty. I still don’t feel 100% today… But I was pleased that I didn’t put on any weight as I was dreading it a bit.

Tomorrow I start again with the exercising. I see my PT then and will see how I cope. And will decide how many times I will exercise this week. Last time I saw him I almost fainted after 15min because I was feeling so rubbish! I am a bit nervous to go and exercise again. As that feeling was quite terrifying. Not too keen to that again !!! But right now I start to feel a bit down and then realised that I haven’t exercised for 2 weeks or so. So want to get back into it as soon as I can!

My date on Friday didn’t really go according to plan. I thought we were gonna have a meal and then see a movie. But after the meal he wanted to go home and never mentioned anything about the movie. So my night out was just a few hours. I found that very strange. Someone who “supposedly” was very keen to see me!! So have decided not to contact him again and see when he will contact me! If he does so … I haven’t heard from him sofar!

So really need to get back into exercising to clear my head… as I start to notice that I get irritated for really minor things! No wonder my friends tease me by saying I am a drama queen!! I probably am … :) My counsellor told me that I am just very sensitive!! That is just a nice way of saying the same thing. HA…

Anyway here is my food for today:
Breakfast: Oatso simple golden syrup + 180 skimmed milk
Snack: 2 Clementine
Lunch: Bagel + Philly light basil + wafer thin ham, Chicken soup. Dessert: Orange
Snack: 100gr yogurt + 70gr strawberries + 70gr blueberries + 15gr whey protein banana
Dinner: wholemeal pasta with something (not too sure what yet!!)
Drinks: 3L water, 2 coffees latte

Exercise: None

Today the dizzyness has make way for a heavy cold. Considering that everyone in the office is sneezing and coughing it is not a surprise that I get it now too. But I'd rather have a cold than dealing with dizzyness. That was pretty awful. At least a cold is just a cold. It can make you feel really rundown but it is just a cold after all!!

I won't do any exercises till Saturday when I see my PT again. I was debating earlier if I would go for a run. But have decided against it. As my body was telling me to take it easy and that is what I am going to do. Maybe I was overdoing it a bit too before I got ill and my immune system went downhill.

Anyway on Friday I go on a date. It is the 3rd time we meet up. I think I quite like the guy. I am definitely looking forward to it. I haven't been on a 3rd date for ages so hopefully I will still be happy on Saturday. He seems quite keen though ... which is good!

Saturday I have a big party to go to where there will be lots of drinking, eating and dancing involved. I am really looking forward to it. We have it every year and it is such great fun!

Food:
Breakfast: Oatso simple Sweet cinnamon and 180ml skimmed milk
Snack: Apple
Lunch: Bagel + philly light basil. Dessert: 2 Satsumas
Snack: 100gr yogurt, 80gr strawberries, 60gr blueberries and 10gr vanilla whey protein
Dinner: Fish pie. Dessert: Pear
Snack: TBC
Drinks: 3L water, 2 Cappucino skinny Nescafe

Exercise: None

New start ... again

Today my healthy lifestyle starts again. I had friends over for the last 4 weeks and decided not to log anything and just enjoy their company. I still carried on with the exercising though. This morning I got on the scales and I put on 1kg. I was quite pleased that it wasn't more. So now I hope it will go off quite quickly...

My new weigh in day is now Tuesday. It used to be Friday but wanted to do things differently and starting it on a different day might do the trick! So my start weight is 84.4kg. As per WLR I should get to my weight goal which is 70kg by June next year. Just in time for the bikini weather ... :)

Not too sure why but I am quite excited about it all ...again!!

Exercise wise is still gonna be quite low as I am recovering from a nasty bug. I have been suffering from dizziness, shakiness and general no energy whatsoever. I had it since last Thursday and decided to give my body a rest and only start exercising again once my body gives me the go ahead!!

Here is my food for today:

Breakfast: Oatso simple golden syrup and 180ml skimmed milk

Snack: Apple

Lunch: 104gr wholewheat pasta and LF pesto. Dessert: Pear

Snack: 100gr yogurt, 60gr blueberries and 80gr strawberries and 10gr vanilla whey protein

Dinner: Salmon and asparagus gratin. Dessert: 2 satsumas

Snack: TBC

Drinks: 3L water

Exercise: None