Tuesday, 30 June 2009

I feel my head is the right place right now especially about the dieting. I also feel so free now that I don't do calorie counting anymore. Now I realise it was restricting me or I felt restricted. And I am happy to say that sofar it is working. I can see the numbers on the scale going down. And I feel like I am eating healthier because I have to eat more veggies. I love fruit so that is never going to be a problem. I have to be more creative with my food which is a good thing. So let's hope my positive feeling and thinking is going to continue. Right now I don't miss pasta but then again this is only the 3rd day. It is funny that when you set your mind to it you can change your eating habits.

My big holiday is at the end of September. I want to lose 8 kg by then and have 12 weeks to do it. It might be a lot but I want to put my goal high. So I will make extra effort to exercise and eat healthy. Right now I exercise 5 times a week. And I want to keep that up as it is very achievable for me right now.

Breakfast: Porridge oats, skimmed milk, sunflower seeds and golden syrup
Snack: Carrots
Lunch: Mixed salad + dressing. Dessert: Raspberry and Nectarine
Snack: Nakd bar and maybe a banana if I need it before my workout

Dinner: Bolognaise sauce
without the pasta. Dessert: Pineapple
Snack: 25gr almonds

Drinks: 3L water (some of it with no added orange squash), Sport drink (it is one that my PT has given me. So it is not the one you buy in the shop full of sugar)

Exercise: PT session and also a walk with a friend (not sure this is really going to be a exercise workout. But it is definitely more exercise than sitting on the sofa watching tennis on tele. :)

Monday, 29 June 2009

Feeling positive!

Today it is my 2nd day of no wheat diet. For lunch I had a salad but didn't like the dressing so only had half of it. And then one hour later I was starving and a headache started. So had a bar of chocolate. I know it is not a wise choice but my brain stopped functioning at that moment. I have to be more organised if that happens again. Well hopefully it won't happen again. As I was at work and the canteen was already closed I couldn't get fruit.
I am eating more nuts now and that is great as I love it. I only have portions of 25gr a day.

Since I stopped counting calories I feel a bit more free in my head. Till then I was constantly thinking about how much I could eat and how many calories where in such or such food. Now I try to eat when I am hungry and have something healthy... I am happy sofar with the choice I've made. And I think I will succeed not to have pasta this month. Today I feel quite positive about it now. The only thing is that after lunch I was so very sleepy and don't really know what to do about it...

This is what I had today:

Breakfast: Porridge, skimmed milk, sunflower seeds and syrup
Snack: carrots
Lunch: salad and couscous. Dessert: grapefruit and a nectarine
Snack: Nakd bar
Oops: Twix
Dinner: Wrap, chicken, guacamol, tzatziki, tomatoes. Dessert: cherries
Snack: 25gr almonds

Drinks: 3L water (some of it with no added sugar)

Exercise: none

Saturday, 27 June 2009

New start

I spoke to my personal trainer as things are not going well diet wise. My fitness has improved a great deal but have only lost 2 kg since February :-(

So we discussed it for a while and then he quickly realised that I wasn't eating enough protein and too many carbs. So he suggested to try for one month to leave out all carbs and have protein in every meal. I am such a pasta lover and not sure at all how this will go. But I am willing to try and see if that will help. He also said that I was eating way too much sugar in my food and that it changes into fat and he thinks that might be the reason why I am not losing. So will try to include more protein in my diet and see where it goes.

I thought I knew everything there is to know about dieting. Well here it shows that I still have a lot to learn about it...

I have also decided that I won't do the calorie counting I was doing before. I have read that the apple shape girls (which is definitely me!!) shouldn't do a calorie counting diet but just eat healthy with a lot of protein and veggies. I will try that and hopefully my weight will go down. I had to change things drastically as I am so fed up with all this. I am exercising so much for so little reward. Not very nice feeling.... Although I really enjoy doing all these exercises and feel so much better I was still very disappointed that the weight or size wasn't going down.

Recently I've had quite a lot of questions regarding my trainer. He is very nice guy and we get on very well but sometimes I felt he wasn't too committed about it and just happy for me to come to the session and get his money. But after our chat today I can see that he is committed and want me to succeed.

Just hope this will work...

Friday, 26 June 2009


Yesterday spent the whole day at Wimbledon. It was a very last minute thing but enjoyed every minute of it! I love the buzz and the atmosphere but it is definitely not good for my diet. I know one day doesn't ruin your diet. But I always feel like I've ruined it. Today started again and my diet week starts on a Friday.
Today I read an article about not weighing yourself but measuring yourself. I wish I could not go on the scales but it is stronger than me and just measuring myself. But since I haven't felt any difference in my clothes I haven't measured myself to avoid the disappointment.
I have exercised a lot since January but have only lost a measly 2 kg. Very disappointing! But my fitness has improved a great deal. So that is the positive side of it! I wonder when will I see and feel a difference in my clothes. At the moment it is a bit frustrating as size 16 is too big but size 14 is just a bit tight. So nothing really fits me!
I really gets to me as I get very little reward for all the efforts I put in. And yes I have been away 3 times since January but still I would have expected a bigger loss in weight or size. But not much seem to shift. So now for the next 11 weeks I am not going anywhere so hopefully I will see a difference. My target date is 25th September. That is when I go on holiday and want to be a good confortable size 14. So fingers crossed!

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Boring day!!

Today was a very boring day at work but managed to stay off the chocolates which is a big achievement for me! At the moment really struggle with someone at work. I can't put it beside me and forget about it. I like to be treated in the right way but it is not really happening right now! I wish I could just shrug it off my shoulders and move on. But I am too sensitive for that. I will probably feel better in a couple of days. I will probably have to talk to him but I so hate confrontations...
I saw my PT today and we went for an hour long run and I feel so much better now. It was so nice to go outside even though it was very hot. My running is going really now and it so pleasing when I can see improvements. Especially as my weight is not going down very fast.
I am so focused on my exercising now that I can't imagine one day not exercising. It is a really weird thing for me as I've never been like that before. Maybe this is it where I will keep the weight off...

Daily Cal Quota: 1540
+ Exercise Cals: 512
Total Cal Quota: 2052
Calories Consumed: 1710
Calories Left: 342

Monday, 22 June 2009

Rest day

Today was my rest day but feel absolutely knackered. That shows that exercise gives you more energy. But I will exercise the following 3 days so a rest day is probably what my body needs right now.
I saw my councellor today and it makes me realise how far I've come. And how happy I am that I made the decision to start seeing her 4 years ago. I have learned so much about myself and it has made me a stronger person. But always feel quite tired after a session as it is all emotional stuff that is talked about.

Today I had too many calories but as yesterday I burned so many calories during tennis. I don't feel too bad about and there are 3 days of exercising coming up too....

Daily Cal Quota: 1540
+ Exercise Cals: 0
Total Cal Quota: 1540
Calories Consumed: 1598
Calories Left: -58

Sunday, 21 June 2009

Change in attitude!

Today I noticed a change in my attitude towards exercising. I went to play tennis with friends but there were 5 of us and of course that is 1 person too many. So when I arrived I was a bit annoyed with it. Then I decided to go for a run for 25 minutes as I thought it would be silly to just sit there and wait for them to finish the set so I could play. I was really proud of myself that I went running as in the past I would have just sit there on the bench and waited for my turn or eat chocolates. Big shift in my head today...
On Friday I will go to Wimbledon with a friend and I am so very much looking forward to it. But the problem is that normally I see my PT that day. And I was annoyed that I couldn't train. I don't know why but I am so very much into my exercising right now. When I don't exercise I get annoyed with it! And I have to say I love that feeling that I want to exercise as it keeps me happy and positive.
So today was a good day as I burned a lot of calories and I am going to Wimbledon... Jipie!!!

Daily Cal Quota: 1540
+ Exercise Cals: 777
Total Cal Quota:2317
Calories Consumed:1660
Calories Left:656

Saturday, 20 June 2009

Welcome to my Blog!

Welcome to my blog!
I have decided that writing a blog would be a good start to keep me motivated and share my experiences (that is if I am not the only reading it...) I have been on a diet for as long as I can remember and have decided that 2009 will the year that I will keep it off.
To start my fitness regime I see a personal trainer as I know I often lose motivation and can't be bothered with exercising although I know I will feel much better afterwards. Motivation is probably one of reasons why I never was able to keep the weight off. I also go to a Body Attack class once a week. I play tennis but that is not on a weekly basis.
To start off my diet I will try to limit my chocolate intake to the minimum possible. I'm on 1540 calories/day and that is good for me. Anything under that and I get headaches and feel restricted. I don't want to feel like I am on a diet. I want it now to be a lifestyle change.

Daily Cal Quota: 1540
+ Exercise Cals: 522
Total Cal Quota: 2062
Calories Consumed: 1743
Calories Left: 319